I was having a discussion with a friend the other day about guys and how I wasnt interested in a relationship right now but am having fun going out and hanging out with my friends and meeting people anyways.  She told me to be careful.  Be careful of my heart because when you least expect it, thats when it falls for someone it shouldnt.

In the past year I am a newly single woman. After being a relationship for the past four years it all seems very foreign to go out and have fun.  Its hard to meet new people when you have been off the market for SOO long. Its almost like a different language.  What do you say to someone new who knows nothing about your life?  How do you start those conversations, especially while taking into consideration that you dont want to be hurt again.  How do you talk while being guarded?  Not divulging too much?  Its a hard line to draw.  I have decided, at least for me, the way to do it is to NOT be guarded. What do I have to lose?  Right now – NOTHING.

I understand that after a breakup from a long term relationship I should really be more careful and in reality, jaded but honestly, im not.  I feel bitter every once in a while about it but really I look at my life now and I love it.  I LOVE LIFE. I want to shout it becuase I honestly dont think I have been able to say that for a very long time now.  I really like the place I am at.  I like how the right smile from a cute guy can leave little butterflies in my stomach yet I dont even know his name or who he is. I like how I can flirt with someone and they can make me feel beautiful, yet it means nothing.  I like knowing that this year I am working on me but knowing at the same time that there are guys out there for when I am feeling ready for more.  It feels good!  After four years I feel good! I feel like I am where I am supposed to be and I am so happy.

The only people I really have to thank for everything I am feeling as of late are my family and friends.  Without them I am sure that this past year I would have been lost.  They made my transition from in a relationship to single girl pretty seemless!!

SO – my cheers this weekend is to life!  Love it. Live it. SMILE!